Definition of Insanity

As MD and I get ready for the DCH BBQ, I am struck by how very lonely I am. I thought it was just the normal doing everyday things I used to do without Chad, but I realized it's because he is out of town. Talk about stupid. By the time I see him it will have been over a month and a half since we have seen each other, and we only text once a week or so. So, why in the world do I miss a man I never get to see or talk to anymore just because I know he's not in Denver, when I guarantee he is anything but missing me!